The 4th: Personal Thoughts & A Message From CROME

I am exhausted..

But, thank you all for still sticking with me.

I know I have been relentless on the emails, the promotions, and more. But, this is how it is right now for me. I wish it weren't, trust me.

I don't want to drive away my CRO-ME's ❤️🥰

But, on the flip - I have never worked so hard to simply come up with rent, to only still be short by $100. Yep. I still need a miracle...

I don't know what else to do, I have annoyed my folks more than I ever wanted to. I made ZERO at a 3 day fest last weekend.

So, if I can't make it with my art - I need to find something else. I do not enjoy this kinda hustle. I have never been a good salesperson because I don't like bothering people. It's really not something i enjoy.

In a perfect world: You'd hear nothing but positive news from me while I sell art weekly: new drops, new merch, upcoming shows, etc..

But when I am always and forever constantly worried about paying someone, something - how in heck do I have time to be that artist I want to be? I don't.

Is this giving up?

No, but I also don't want to be evicted - I have 3 dogs to worry about now...

I am starting to wonder if I need to step away from Art - because I have been struggling my entire career.

I am 46 years old, and still struggling.
WHY. This is not the life I want.

I am pretty emotional right now because I just feel like I have tried everything I can think of, and still can't come up with rent. Anytime I am about to get comfortable in my life, when I feel like things are finally possibly falling into place - is when all the shit hits the fan. And i am sick of it. It's constant.

Truth be told: Last month I had a prime supporter/investor pull out due to personal reasons - and I knew I would have to hustle this month to make up for what they provided for me.

Without them, I would not be where I am at all. I would not have a truck, this home, or I never would've made it this far without their belief in me, and I truly owe them my life.

But, now - after this last month - I don't see me coming up with that money monthly, it was so so tough to generate the cash I DID receive this month - I don't have it in me to keep doing it every day. It's really exhausting, stressful, nerve-racking as there is no guarantee, there is no backup...and I don't enjoy it one bit - hounding folks to buy art from me, to donate, to care....Like, I didn't sign up for this.

I just want to create art that people want to buy. I just want to have a place to live, with peace, comfort, and stability for me and my dogs. I don't need fancy, I need stability, I need less chaos, less uncertainties - more people wanting to see me succeed rather than fail. (not you, but this local community here has been tough)

I get everyone is hurting, but I ALSO know many people are not - and that MANY galleries are selling artwork right now. MANY. People NEED art right now. People NEED to connect, to let loose and why people need my workshops AND art.

To lose yourself in, to heal, to mend.

Something needs to change. Maybe it's me. Maybe it's my prices. Maybe it's my focus.

I am honestly thinking of relocating tiny home and just doing that, because I really have been trying, and I am sick of putting my all into everything I do, simply to survive and provide the community with something fun, or my audience with something new...only to have no one care...okay, let's say 5 people.

And I am grateful for those 5 people - but those 5 people are also probably tred of this....and I never wanted them to feel they had to BE this FOR me.

I am all CROME'd out, folks.

 

 

PS - I am not wishing a "Happy 4th" for a reason - we literally have nothing to celebrate as a country - hence why I am simply focusing on Red White n Blue Pups - I would rather celebrate our doggos than this corrupt country!

PPS - YES, I STILL have 2 mini pawtrait spots available!. Website purchases are back in session, please feel free to purchase via website.

Thank you everyone for you're understanding and compassion.

 

...Next Up?

I am about to have a HUGE HUGE sale. On ALL ORIGINALS.

So, if you've been waiting for me to hit rock bottom to take advantage of me - now's your chance. 🫠

Details to come!

Until then, I really need a few more sales or donations....guess what else is coming up! A $400 electric bill due by the 10th....starting to think I may need to just go live off grid again and say eff it all.

It would be much easier on my heart - this stress is just too much.